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Excerpt from my Book – Warm Honey Drizzle & Lemon For…..

3.  {Uncertainty}

How I wish, I could catch the wind and keep it close to my heart so I never have to be blown away by what tomorrow holds.

 

 

 

 Hope for Tomorrow (Poem)

How can I

Know for sure

What tomorrow holds?

How can I see beyond

The troubles of today

Feeble hands

Tired Thoughts

Reminders of my past

Deep Regrets

Time misused

On things I thought will yield

Can’t go on

All strength is gone

And yet my spirit cries

Arise and seek

Your makers will

His strength to you will come

Hope renewed

Direction seen

To walk where angels dare

How could I

Not have seen

A road so very clear

A joyful heart

Strength untold

To do my makers will

Now I see

Beyond today

There’s hope for Tomorrow. 

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 (Short Story)

‘Come on Sheila. It’s time to go. It’s almost midnight’, urged Diamond. ‘We do not want to loose our regulars. Its ‘good friday’ our best night of the week. Come On!’

Sheila tip-toed into the small dark room and planted a big wet kiss on the forehead of her sleeping toddler and gently tip-toed back to the door where Diamond was impateintly waiting.

This is not the first time Sheila has left her baby home alone at night. She always tells herself; ‘he sleeps like a log and I will be back before he even wakes up’. 

She looks up into the night sky as they made their way towards the busy high street. Diamond looked at her curiously and asked. ‘What are you looking up at the sky for? I never took you for a star-gazer or the romantic type’. Sheila responded; ‘No, I am neither really. I am just thinking that there must be someone up there watching over us. Do you know the number of times I have had to leave my baby home alone and each time I have returned and he’s been safe. Anyway, let’s hurry before our spot gets taken by those hustlers’.

Sheila and Diamond became friends when they met one night on the street corner where Diamond worked. Diamond worked as a call – girl and was at her usual spot where all her regulars come to pick her up. Sheila had just had her baby and had been thrown out by her boyfriend who said he did not want her or her lousy baby anymore and that they had to find somewhere else to live. Sheila had no work permit and was illegally living in the country when she met him. She had no relatives or close friends to turn to given that she came to the country as a war child from another country seeking refugee status. She was put straight into the care system until she turned 18 and then got chucked out and told to return to her country. There was nothing and no one to return to. She lost everything years ago and honestly believes that she would have died had there not been an invisible hand guiding her path all this time. Well, her trials and struggles both from her childhood and during her time in the Care System, those are long stories not to be remembered today.

Luckily for her, Diamond found her that night. The night that horrible boyfriend of hers threw her and his 3 month old baby out. Diamond found her crouched in a corner on this same high street covered with some cardboards to keep both herself and her baby warm. She took them both home to her small flat above the shoe repairer’s shop. They have been inseparable ever since. Best friends for life. Diamond introduced her to prostitution soon after. Now, she spends her day taking care of her baby and the night  prowling the street with Diamond, looking for customers and playing hide and seek with the police.

Sheila quietly thought to herself; ‘fridays are good nights, they each will get at least two customers tonight which will put some much needed money in their pockets. ‘I do not enjoy this lifestyle but there is no other way to survive’ She reasoned with herself. ‘Maybe one day, I will save enough money to…..’  She wasn’t sure what she will save for. Infact, she wasn’t certain about anything as far as the future is concerned.  Lately, she has not been liking friday nights because one of her regular customers who says he is a Solicitor working in the city has been bugging her to tell him more about herself, to give up the lifestyle, with promises that he will take care of her. But once bitten, twice shy. It is hard to trust anyone now, anyone except Diamond. It is especially hard to trust any man. Despite how she feels about people and about the future, she just has to take one look at her son and realise that she cannot help but want a better life for him. Anyway, this customer always pays her well but insists that he does not want to have sex with her. He just wants to talk. He unsettles her but seems kind too, in a strange sort of way. Come to think about it, what will a good kind man be doing seeking the company of a prostitute? He tells her that he sees a light shining in her eyes.  According to him, a person’s eyes are the windows to their soul. He tells her that he thinks her soul is beautiful and that she deserves better things from life than what she appears to be involved in.

Tonight she will find out more about him and what he is really about. Tonight she will treat him like a person instead of just a customer. She was so deep in thought she did not hear Diamond whispering. Anyway Diamond is not the whispering type. She is the shouting type. Diamond takes life by the horns and rides hard. Her slogan is, Life does you no favours so why should you do it any favours? She jokingly always says that she is a diamond in the rough, you have to look closely to see her sparkle. But Sheila has always known that underneath the hardened exterior is a very loving person who deserves better than the hand life has dealt her. Diamond was and will always be her guardian angel. Friends for life.

‘Why are you whispering Diamond’? Asked Sheila. ‘Look!’ Diamond responded, staring straight ahead. There he stood, waiting; her regular customer, the one who wants no sex. He was dressed differently today, in a suit and a tie, looking really smart and posh. He had a bouquet of flowers in one hand. He was smiling at them as they walked towards him. As they got nearer, he went down on one knee and began to say the words that Sheila thought she will never hear as long as she lives.

He said ‘tonight, I come to ask you to marry me, Sheila. I have come to love you, although I know you think I do not know much about you. I lost my wife two years ago and until I met you, I have not wanted to be with anyone else. The night we met, I was not looking for a prostitute. I had decided to end my life that night and thought I will do it as far away from my home as I could. So I came this way. When I saw you, I knew straight away what you were doing standing there soliciting for customers with your beautiful eyes. Your eyes….. they looked so haunted, so sad, almost as sad as I was feeling, but there was a light shining through at the same time. I just wanted to be with you, to talk to you. You took my mind off my own misery for a few hours by just listening and giving me the attention you did that night. I was not interested in sex but I wanted to see you again so I decided to go back home and come again the following week. You have made me want to live again and I want to live with you. I want us to have a life together. Will you marry me?’

Sheila was speechless. To say she was shocked would have been an understatement. Even Diamond was shocked into silence. The silence was deafening as they both waited for Sheila’s response?

All Sheila could think about was that this must be a dream. If she just stands very still she might wake up any minute now… any minute now…… any minute now…..

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ENOUGH SAID!!! - Articles by Selasie Bulmuo

Women and Children

 

 

And he lifted up his eyes, and saw the women and the children; and said, Who are those with thee? And he said, The children which God hath graciously given thy servant. (Genesis 33:5 KJV).

When it counts most, it is the women and the children who suffer. They bear the brunt of society’s failings. They are the most vulnerable ones .

They are not the least important but their status and how they are treated is the real measure of any society’s true potential.

Women are nurturers. Children are the future in seed form which women nurture. Where ever you find the two groups together, there you will also find true wealth in it’s latent developing form.

Children in the hands of a good woman live and thrive. They are nurtured, taught both practical things and wisdom for living. Greatness is developed there, irrespective of disadvantages or lack or deprivation, the children are safe with their good mothers who will put every resource available into the nurturing of the children first.

During the recent earthquakes in Japan, the world saw a very emotional picture of a dead woman who was pulled out of the rubble after many days. The rescuers were shocked to find that cradled securely and safely in her arms was her baby who was still alive because the mother used her body to bear the brunt of the dangerous debris which fell on them and buried them. What a portrait of love. She gave her life to preserve a generation.

You hear it all the time, women give up their careers, what they could have been, they sacrifice these for the sake of their marriages and their children so they can focus on the seed carriers and the seeds so as to give them the best future .

Although a woman does not produce biological seed but only receives it, God made this phenomenal statement concerning the woman in her worse moment of crisis when she had not even behaved appropriately;

‘And the Lord God said unto the serpent, Because thou hast done this, thou art cursed above all cattle, and above every beast of the field; upon thy belly shalt thou go, and dust shalt thou eat all the days of thy life: And I will put enmity between thee and the woman, and between thy seed and her seed; it shall bruise thy head, and thou shalt bruise his heel’. (Genesis 3:14, 15 KJV)

The seed of the woman shall bruise the serpents head. Phenomenal. It takes greater power to bruise the head of a thing than it’s heel. To bruise the head there has to be a face to face confrontation which requires strategising and preparation. To bruise the heel requires so much less. It simply requires coming from behind the person and hurting them unawares.

It is the seed which the woman brings forth and nurtures, trains, teaches etc that will confront the darkness in the world and win the victory. All children need good mothers, not only to bring them forth but to bring them up as well with instruction, admonition and gentle and tender loving care. They need their fathers too but in a different way. They need their fathers to give them a begining, an identity, a calling, a name, boundaries and access to provisions to ensure their care.

Children are not the only seeds a woman can nurture. All visions need nurturers. If you doubt what I am saying go to any church or caring organisation and you will see that the women out number the men. Their hearts are soft, they are receptive and hospitable and provide the atmosphere for growth. They bring beauty to a thing.

The issue is not that a woman does not have seed of her own. Whatever a woman has is supposed to be a depository, a bank, a resevoir to be accessed under authority for a specific purpose, a help meet (suitable for a particular purpose). She cannot therefore use it anyway and anyhow she likes. She has to be released to use it or else she destroys herself.

It is a good woman who also ensures that the seed carrier, the man, does not waste his seed which is the greatness in him but puts it to good use as a responsible person, who doesnot shift blame, so that his assignment and the work of his hands does not cease and end with him but is carried safely and transferred to another generation of seed carriers.

So it does not matter how much wealth and power you accumulate if the women you are associated with are not cared for, allowed to use resources, elevated, protected, your hardworking and all your efforts will end with you. A woman has the capacity to build without hankering for accolade or recognition. All she needs is to be well cared for and honoured in her environment and not left idle or resourceless (without a seed) or without opportunities to nurture.

The worse thing on earth to a woman is not being able to carry seed and bring it forth. No amount of comforting words can fill that vacuum. She needs seed which has been released to her. Without seed she will be idle and she will get into trouble trying to fill that vacuum with other things.A woman’s seed which she brings forth and nutures, defines her. Just start a thing, hand it over to a good woman and you can be sure that it will grow into what you couldn’t even plan for. It will bear many fruits as long as you give good boundaries, the support needed and you do not control the nurturing but give it the needed resources and environment, it will grow. Good women have the ‘Midas Touch’.

In the absence of this, your seed attempts to grow in harsh, hostile, competitive environments and becomes stunted in it’s growth. Anyone who does not release, commision and allow the resources and virtue in the women in his life to take effect does not grow proportionally. Because nurturing has been stunted, growth gets stunted as well. True nurturing of a vision (seed) and the vision carier (seed giver) cannot be replaced with any other thing. It shows in the results in the long term.

You see, God set up a structure after the fall of man. A woman’s desire shall be to her husband. In other words, everything a woman desires for herself shall be subjected to the approval of her husband or the authority figure in her life. If she is not married that will be her father, biological, adopted, spiritual. She herself is to subject her desire to him. It is her husband as the seed carrier who gives her seed a name, an identity and gives her the permission, the masculine support and sets the boundaries within which her protection is secure so that she can nurture the seed and bring it forth.

‘Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and thy desire shall be to thy husband, and he shall rule over thee’. (Genesis 3:16 KJV)

A woman who refuses to subject herself to this authority usurps her resources and abuses the seed she has. She will go overboard and the enemy knows it too.

God’s basic structure of functioning has not changed even after the redemptive work of Jesus. Why should it? The value of the woman has not changed. Her potential and abilities are still there just as God made them. Women and their seed still need security and protection and elevation and release according to God’s order.

‘For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body. Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing. Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it; That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word, That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish. So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself. (Ephesians 5:23-28 KJV)

We are none of us without seed. But unless the seed in a woman is named, affirmed and called forth it remains a seed. A woman cannot bring forth without casualties to the seed if that seed and the woman herself is not identified and supported through the whole process. You cannot behave anyhow when you are pregnant. You need someone to hold up their hands and say they are responsible for you and the iunborn child. You need their support even after you get pregnant and you need boundaries, things you are allowed to do and not allowed to do. You need antenatal care, love and security, all these to bring forth a healthy child without suffering miscarriages along the way. Same principle applies to vision and all else you do as a woman.

 
God knows the richness of the resources he has put in women so whenever there was a great moment of crisis in bible times, he calls on the women to travail, to cry out to bring forth a deliverer. He does not call on the politicians, the great ones in society, he calls on the woman, for the sake of posterity.

A woman is a resource bank, a favour bank, a vessel that needs to be treated according to knowledge and handled honourably because of what she contains. Her weakness is a vulnerability not because she is inferior but because she is carrying important cargo. Husbands are asked to honour them. Will God ask you to honour something inferior. No. You honour something valuable.

‘Likewise, ye husbands, dwell with them according to knowledge, giving honour unto the wife, as unto the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life; that your prayers be not hindered’.( 1 Peter 3:7 KJV).

It is the vessel that is weak, not its contents. The strongest people I know are women. They have been through a lot but rise up, and keep going without complaining. They know how to answer the questions of life that confronts them.

That is why God has highly favoured women and has gone to all lengths to ensure their security. A man marries into a woman’s favour not her lack. If he is unable to do anything with that favour that is his own fault.

Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the LORD. (Proverbs 18:22 KJV).
Looking at the the main verse in this article, Jacob was about to have the greatest confrontation of his life with his twin brother who he stole the birth right from. So what does he do?  He divides his whole entourage into sections, sending ahead of him his men, the fighters, ( the economists, the politicians, etc) with portions of his wealth , cattle and sheep hoping that these will impress his brother and he will take them as presents from him so that his anger may be calmed.

But these were just material things. They did not represent Jacob’s future. They did not represent his seed, his potential or his capacity to take future territories. Esau knew this. He was not interested in seeing the present day fruits. He was more interested in seeing the seed carrier( Jacob), the seed nurturers and the seeds. These were the true measure of his wealth.

I pray that God will give you the wisdom to choose good and wise, seed carriers( men) and able seed nurturers ( women ). Also that you will count your wealth not by your fruits but by your nurturing capacity and by your seed which the Lord God will bless you with so that your future will be the expected end that God has in mind for you.

Enough said!!!!

POEMS

Hope For Tomorrow – Poem by Selasie Bulmuo

  • Worried about tomorrow? ……take a look.

    How can I

    Know for sure

    What tomorrow holds?

    How can I see beyond

    The troubles of today

     

    Feeble hands

    Tired Thoughts

    Reminders of my past

    Deep Regrets

    Time misused

    On things I thought will yield

     

    Cant go on

    All strength is gone

    And yet my spirit cries

    Arise and seek

    Your makers will

    His strength to you will come

     

    Hope renewed

    Direction seen

    To walk where angels dare

    How could I

    Not have seen

    A road so very clear

     

    A joyful heart

    Strength untold

    To do my makers will

    Now I see

    Beyond today

    There’s hope for Tomorrow. 

    That’s right